I’ve never had a “normal” memory of childhood. No fuzzy flashbacks of warm cookies after school or lazy Sundays curled up with a smiling mom.
My name is Sophie. I’m 25, and I work at the front desk of a small physical therapy clinic in Tacoma, Washington. It’s not glamorous, but it pays the bills and keeps me distracted for the most part.
I read mystery novels to calm my nerves and bake late at night because recipes make more sense than people. I never understood why I felt so out of place until everything I thought I knew about my life came crashing down.
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Growing up, I carried one truth like a scar across my chest: “You’re adopted. You should be grateful I saved you.”
That’s what Margaret always told me.
She was the woman who raised me. I never called her “Mom.” Not once. Even as a kid, the word didn’t fit her. She wore beige skirts, kept her house spotless, and spoke like someone rehearsing lines in a play. Her hugs were stiff and rare, like she was scared they’d somehow mess up her perfectly ironed clothes.
Margaret was never violent. But she wasn’t kind either.
Everything about her felt cold. Calculated. Distant.
She ran the house like a business and treated me like a charity case she wished she had never taken in.
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My childhood felt like I was a guest in a stranger’s home, walking on eggshells, too scared to breathe too loudly. There were no bedtime stories. No “I love yous.” Just rules. So many rules.
But her husband, my adoptive father, was different. His name was George. He had kind eyes and deep laugh lines that creased even more whenever I messed up a math problem. He’d smile and say, “Good thing I’ve got a calculator for a brain.”
George made me feel seen. He was the one who taught me how to ride a bike on the cracked sidewalk out front. He’d pick dandelions and tuck them behind my ear. I remember him rubbing my back when I had the flu in fourth grade, whispering, “Don’t worry, honey bun, I’m right here.”
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But when I was ten, he died of a heart attack. No warning. One moment, he was pouring cereal; the next, he was on the floor.
After the funeral, it was like someone switched the heat off in our house.
Margaret didn’t cry. She didn’t speak much. She just… hardened.
No more back pats or quiet meals in front of the TV. No softness. No warmth.
She didn’t hit me. She didn’t scream. But I swear the silence was worse. Like I was living with a ghost who kept the lights on and the fridge stocked, but nothing else.
She stopped hugging me. Stopped saying goodnight. She barely looked me in the eye.
And she never let me forget I wasn’t really hers.
When I once asked if I could join ballet like the other girls, she stared at me and said, “You could’ve been rotting in an orphanage. Remember that and behave.”
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She said it often, that same cold line, in front of anyone who could hear. Family, neighbors, even my fifth-grade teacher during parent-teacher night. Like it was just another fact about me, the way someone might say, “She’s allergic to peanuts,” or “She has brown eyes.”
Kids at school heard everything. And kids? They know exactly how to use words like knives.
“Your real family didn’t want you.”
“No wonder you don’t fit in. You’re not even from here.”
“Does your fake mom even love you?”
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I started skipping lunch. Hiding in the library. I didn’t cry at school. Margaret hated tears.
At home, I learned how to blend in. I learned to be small, to be quiet, and to be thankful.
Even when I didn’t feel it.
By the time I was 15, I’d perfected the role of the “Grateful Adopted Kid.” I said thank you for everything, even when it stung.
But deep down, I felt like I owed the world a debt I could never pay off.
That was my life.
Until Hannah spoke the words I’d buried my whole life.
Hannah had been my best friend since seventh grade. She had curly blonde hair that she always wore in a messy bun and a laugh that made people feel comfortable instantly. She saw through me before I even knew I was pretending.
She never pushed. Just… stayed close.
That night, I stormed out of the house after yet another passive-aggressive fight with Margaret over the way I “rolled my eyes” during dinner.
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I didn’t even remember doing it, but she made a big deal out of it, saying I was disrespectful and spoiled. Again.
I didn’t say a word. I just grabbed my jacket and left.
Hannah lived just two blocks away. When she opened the door and saw my face, she didn’t ask anything. She simply stepped aside. I slipped off my shoes and sank onto her couch. She brought me tea, the cheap grocery store kind with too much cinnamon, and we wrapped ourselves in a fleece blanket that smelled like vanilla.
I repeated the words I’d heard all my life.
“You should be thankful I even took you in.”
She stayed quiet for a moment. Her fingers curled around the mug, and I could see her jaw tighten.
Then she looked at me, really looked at me, and said, “Soph… don’t you ever wonder who your real parents were?”
I stared at her. “What do you mean? Margaret told me she had adopted me from Crestwood Orphanage. She said it a hundred times.”
